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The Rise & Fall & Rise of elixirmixer (a blog)

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This is the complete collection of @elixirmixer’s blog entries about his life from the "old board" where we had a blog section.



As I lay in my bed, at 10:30 on a Saturday morning, head still foggy from beers till 4am, I can't help but consider, the Stone...

Is it truly that difficult to make?

How many people have actually given it a try?

Maybe 100 modern philosophers?

That's not very many...

It could be more, but even more likely, it could be a lot less...

For me, Alchemy is the art of Transformation. I've always been a huge believer in the idea that performing alchemical processes, does, in and of itself, change the individual, through direct experience and also, waves of indirect influences are constantly washing over the alchemist all throughout his great search, a reward given to all those who being on this path earnestly.

Since joining AlchemyForums I have learnt a great deal about Alchemy. Things I never knew existed, like Spiritus Mundi, for example.

However, a greater gift has been a change in my mind state, my priorities and also the way in which look at alchemy and how I choose to continue my path from here on in....

All of this has had a forced maturing process that naturally occurred when I found this vault of information that I had previously been unaware.

Learning that my inklings about the stone were well on par, was magnificent, and brought me a lot of hope. Having people constructively critique my methods, of both practise and study, has opened up whole new realms of possibilities that I never would have found...

And yet above all, the greatest achievement this far this year, is that I have become aware, that the time of my blossoming will shortly be at hand, for my understanding of the place in which I intend to did myself is growing. Clarity has entered my thinking and slowly but surely there is a shift taking place. One, of a fearless confidence, that comes with making Hollandus your bitch.

Due dates for the Anthology are coming up soon, I've thought many times about what type of write up I should do, yet my laboritory looks like a bomb hit it from our last pyro distillation of grape vine and I'm worried that I will not have time to perform any complicated procedures. Also, while I am writing a beautiful allegorical love story, which could be appropriate, I feel that my mission from the divine is to help the beginners, the recipe hunters, the "lesser" to become more of what they seek to be, and while love stories are nice, they don't pay the philosophical bills, so to speak.

So! I've decided... That for the anthology my piece will be a report on the creation of a tradition Quintessence of Honey. Simply because, I feel it will collectively be the most useful, especially considering that Quintessense of Honey is said to protect other spagyrical preparations from being destroyed by stomach acids when consumed together, thereby, equipping your alchemical arsenals with further weaponry.

I do enjoy popping online and raving on this website. It's a very convenient place for me to store my alchemical impressions, it's a type of social media where I can say words like 'Hermetic Philosophy' and not be instantly deemed as a crack-pot. Here, in this place, the reasons for being deemed a crack-pot are far more justifiable, since it take one to know one ;)

I do wish I had some alchemy friends like Zoas is always going on about...

I'm always trying to get my community excited about a new preparation I've made that could assist them, but I've rarely provoked more than a passing fancy in anyone about my mystical medicines.

I'm sorry if you thought this blog was going to have a particular subject, I pretty much just started raving here because no-one opened up in my special men's club, so I figure I would just self-reflect. (Publicly)

Why publicly? Is it because of a deep inbuilt self-obsession? Perhaps partly, but the true reason is (or at least I convince myself that it is) is because self-expression results in self analysis. I probably learn more from my own words sometimes then anyone else ever does, and I think a lot of us work like that..

Okay this rave is gettin boring now so back to cool shit!

Stone work!

I will, at some stage this year, have a loose crack at trying to create a universal stone. I do not intend success on my first attempt, but, much like the pyro distillation abominating my shed right now, it will basically be a planned fail, just to get the experience points cranking so I can level up before taking on the boss.

I spending about $5000 on new lab gear.

Proper old school retorted 'sweat' flask ($800 just for one flask!!!)
Proper lab grade incubator, last time I had an esky(Aussie thing that we stick our beer and I've in to keep it cold on the go) and my garlic elixir opened up and rotted inside the water bath.

What started as a beautiful powerful garlic smell, in a few days became one of the most unbearable smells I've ever had the displeasure of encountering.

So yeah, proper incubator.
Proper desk top furnace for calcinations.

I'm going super proper. Dare I say, "professional" even.

Last time I said this it created a shitstorm of opinions but I am genuinely looking for an alchemical partner, one which is happy to openly exchange with me, share experiments long distance and perhaps and preferable, did a common alchemical goal that we could assist one another with.

If anyone is keen, you know where to find me :)

Yeah so, welcome to my blog, it's quality standard is variable so just cause this was a shit one, remember, I am hungover in bed.

I might have a nap actually. Night!

Love EM
 

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EM, nice start on the blog. Who helped you write this blog? It's got commas, hyphens and everythin... Nothing like your posts. LOL

Love it. Looking forward to future posts.
 

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With a full intention to purchase 'the book', but doing my best to do my research and make a correct decision and not carelessly throw my family's money to any make-shift sheep, I made certain enquiries.

These investigations resulted in much more than I had imagined, as I was fortunate enough to find favour with an individual who gave me some information regarding the contents of this work, and also where I ought to be looking for information in regards to the alluding SM

I was charged with te sacred duty to maintain the secrets of the ancients, so in summery, even though I was going to buy the stupid book and cry from rooftops with it; now I can't, and am happy that I do not need to buy this expensive book, but can instead work towards my Minor Opus, and further meditate on Gods great works in a more passive manner.

M blog-spot will still I on, in the form of spagyrical recipes. These medicines are great, and if we all make more and more and share, the world will be a better
place.

Know this: (anyone who has been reading and following my hunt for the opus) that the information I have already spoken of in regards to the mundi mundi, isn't actually too bad. It's a start, and there is much to meditate on within the EM's PS Thread.

Nevertheless, the secret must remain as such, as I go and take my seat with the ancients LOL (I hope some of you appreciate my humour) ;) :p :cool:

Peace out for now.
 

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So I was drinking with an old friend at his house some months back. I had a person that I didn't know very well ask me if I could identify a substance. He asked me to go with him but it seemed suspect so I told him he could bring the chemical to me and ill have a look.

It appeared to be a viscous liquid. I said that i could not identify it. Somebody wanted to drink it to find out what it was. I told them that that was a very bad idea and that it could lead to their death. I was very stern and said that i wash my hands of any stupid behaviour.

The man ignored my warnings and drank from this strange looking plastic container. That night he was violently ill, and then two months later, last week, he died. :eek:

This goes to show... listen to Elixirmixer. :mad:
 

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Dear Diary,

I can't sleep...

Ever since having those chats with Mr (______) I cannot stop meditating upon the Opus.

The Green Lion troubles me in my sleep, Like a young lion, amount many beasts this noble character hungers for our gold. The Solaris eludes the many, they think it be the bulgur gold but how be it then that a lion should feed upon himself? Or where does nature, approve this abomination? Not in the noble lion, that's for sure.

I can't wait to get the next quote back. Preparations for the Australian Spring are in place to capture our spirit and unite her with her solaris. Only then will the sun shine and the Lion gorge himself and spill the the red Blood of the Son.

Our Lord, of the tribe of Judea. The Lion and Lamb. The Beginning and the End. Oh how the world has forgotten you, yet I shall not forget. Through revelations and signs you teach me all these things and then what good be chemistry to me? Since with thee I can see all things. Clear the darkness for me and those who seek good for the world.

I think I'm going to bash out some home made Snitzel for my wife for breakfast... Remember to get bread and milk..
 

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Is there anyone here that understands what I'm trying to say here? It's written like I'm a bit crazy because I find it funny and entertaining, however, I've written this to help you understand some of the symbology of the Opus. And I might add, that it's likely that anyone who DOES understand what I'm saying here probably does NOT want to encourage talking about it...

Get with it, gentleman ;) :cool:

Remember, Alchemists are very tricky :p :eek:
 

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Well..

Well..

Well....

It seems that for me the cat is out of the bag. Elixirmixer, as an entity, no longer has any place here. I have shared everything which I am willing to share, and most openly and honestly, and the greatest secrets are hidden in those stranger written pieces. They are my gift to you, and i'm sure anyone who pursues them will find them of great usefulness.

My Journey into Winter must be a solitary one. The fat lady is singing on our days together. When I return I greatly expect to be something else entirely. Sleep well travellers. Look deep into nature and may Elixirmixer, be evidence to you that you need only God, Nature, and a few good souls, and you will find the hidden stone. The final piece of Elixirmixer shall be his entry into the Anthology, and as I've said, after spring, I shall return as something completely different, in order to spark newer, crazier ways of thinking.

And finally, one last pearl I have for any capable souls brave enough to take it from the swines:

The secret Athanor:

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Live Love Heal Pray

Seek for God, there's no other way....
 

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I wish you to come back. You have a fire inside you that I appreciate...
 

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Day 4 of no: alcohol, cigarettes, marijiwana, and masterbation.

I have a serious headache, my anxiety it's through the roof, I washed myself three times over in the shower and still fell dirty.

I'm stressed out, cannot deal with the 'patter of little feet' being a prick to my wife, it really is a time of dark energy evacuation, and as they are forced out of my life and home, they are kicking and screaming.

Cold sweats, a sharp dive in sexual arousal, my back and shoulders are unusually tense, which feelings I usually associate with my anxiety.

Exercise does help, however i have to be in a pretty good mood to break through the body tension and start to move around.

I think I'm losing some weight which is not a bad thing. Finding it hard to get through Franz Bardons first steps because they are all about mind control and this detoxification makes the mind very stuffy and weak.

Example: I was practising bardon about a month ago when I was smoking and drinking and had much better success.

Schmuldvich said he would help me if I 'sobered up'. And he fuckin better after all I'm going through!! Lol, actually it is the bardon training that has spurred this training along and also, Andro at some stage mentioned that marijiwana makes OBE very difficult and since that is my main objective right now, I had no choice but to forsake that beautiful sexy herb.

Bardon says you shouldn't talk about your 'ascent' but he's dead and what he doesn't know won't hurt him ;)

My mouth tastes like poo and smells even worse. This blog entry is to deter youngsters from getting themselves in a position where they have a decade of drug abuse to try to reverse. Much better to never get involved with this shithouse narcotics in the first place.

I will revisit this blog further down the track, to (hopefully) show how good I'll feel in a few weeks to come...

Godbless
 

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Glad to hear you're doing this. It may take a while, but you will reap the rewards.

It Gets Better...
 

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Thank you Andro. Encouragment through this is highly valued. Thank you.
 

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Bardon's stuff isnt really about asceticism but compared to the lifestyle you are finishing with it must seem that way at the moment. Once the drug vestiges clear you will start to progress better.
 

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I have also given up the booze and drugs some time ago.

It's not easy but it all comes down to what we really want to do.

Every way we can clean our body and mind from toxins is a win.

Keep up the good work, I have faith in you.
 

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That's it, it's a matter of "how badly do I want to succeed". I've made some minor relapses, but on the whole I'm making some great progress. I've basically become a 'weekender' rather than an 'every f'ing morning' which is a big difference.

As you can expect, the whole world has come against me to try and get me back on the shit but I'm just so sick of having this crap holding me back.
 

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Keep strong.

It will be so much better for you and your family.

Healthy body, healthy mind...... hang in there.
 

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Day 3

My breathe smells like your ass.

And my ass has little more than a breathe.

I have headaches but not as bad as I thought I would.

Energy levels rise and fall with the wind.

Tea and salty herb waters only.

Synchronicity has kicked in from day one.

I am strengthened and determined by a number of factors this time, so with a little divine grace, perhaps I can make it.

I want to open a charcoal yiros shop :cool:
 

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Its very interesting...

The first time I started; I was just aiming to go 40 days without doing any damage to my body to try and break the cycle.

During that time; I found it extremely stressful; uncomfortable; i was angry and irritable; and eventually broke down and had a fat bong to calm down.

This time I am doing all the same; excepte I removed FOOD from the list also; and dispite that its certainly a challenge; I am MUCH calmer, much more in control, and feel a lot more confident about success than I did last time. You can even see it in my "pains of transformation" blog, how different I was feeling then to how im feeling now.

What im trying to say; is that fasting is the most effective way, not only of purifying, but also of changing ones-self and gaining divine strength.

It is easier to quit sin in whole than it is to quit it in part.
 

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Day 4

Aaarrrrrrrruuuuuuugggggggggg.

Im still in a good mode; and positive about this; I have zero desire for smokables and beer.

However, Im going through some serious physical turmoil right now. Headache's are getting bad, body cramping up. Stomach feels like a garbage dump and my kidneys feel like they spent the night on a brothel floor.

I don't think I'll be getting out of bed today. Do any of you knid gentlemen have any well prepared detox Spagyrics to assist me?

Would mean the world to me.if another alchemist would donate a dose of something lovely to help this process.

I don't believe in telling people that your fasting, I think it undermines the value of the fast; however I think it would be useful for maybe other drug addicts (Ive been addicted to pot for about 13 years, not the heavy stuff although I have dabbled)
...other drug addicts to watch someone else go through the pains of detoxification and find some solace or motivation to help them get through. someone to relate to.

Nothing is a greater challenge than trying to break old habbits. Especially when your breaking a whole bunch of habbits at once. However; nothing is so rewarding than moving from the spiritual ghetto, into The White Lodge; so to speak. (Ive gotten clean before, its awesome)

If you still have addictions and your reading this, please fast, and pray, and change your life. Its always worth it as long as you stick to it.

Godbless
 

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So today; after consoltation with other serious fasters, I decided to take scheduled breaks every 4 days from fasting. I had a can of pink salmon for brain power, about 50grams of duck meat (soooo much tastier than chicken); I had a friend bring over my favourite of his dishes; vindaloo (the real reason I broke fast) and some sweet potatoes in duck fat. Tonight a duck stew. Tomorrow; back into the no food game.

Fir the record; I feel a lot better than I have for quite some time; and it only took 3.5 days. So there is more motivation for anyone trying to break free.
 

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Its a very difficult task to find full purification while at the same time having to engage with an inherently corrupted system.

Fortunatly, administrational developments have finally allowed me a well earned break, I'm being lobbed onto the disability support pension.

I could never explain how grateful I feel, knowing that I no longer have to endure poorly educated people issuing false judgments and superiority complexes over me, trying to force me to impossible means only to access the social security payments that I'm already entitled to under the Australian constitution.

What does this really mean? Well, a lot less stress which is the most important thing of all as I've had far too much of it on my plate my entire life.

Secondly, more cash. Can't complain with that one. I'm going to save all the additional money to help my children buy their first house.

Thirdly, more time. Time is all we really have that is truely valuable, far more than a bitcoin.

And what does less stress, more money, and more time mean?

MORE ALCHEMY!

Great isn't it! :eek:
 

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It might be cheaper to buy land, and over time (if you have the skill) slowly build the house.

:p
 

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So I'm helping this completely legless (drunk) bloke to his mums car, he sees his mum and starts resisting and physically pushing me away, at the very same moment my very loyal, but pretty crazy friend, who is quite big and "scary" comes around the corner and is like "You better not be hurting my friend"

For some reason, the blokes I was with found this a reason to try and start a fight with my friend.

I tell my friend that this bloke wasn't attacking me, and not to hit these guys. He did listen to me which I was very proud of, since what I said didn't do anything to quell them attacking him.

My friend did get frustrated that all these blokes were getting very physical with him, so he put one on the ground and just showed them that he could win if he wanted to. One of the blokes pulled out a knife and I said to him, put that fucking thing away, which he did, but grabbed a wooden club instead.

This was all over their ego, drinking, and their confidence in their numbers, I copped the wooden club in the head twice. My mate was fine, and we eventually cooled off the situation (for now).

I always trick myself I to thinking "beer is okay".
That's because I'm a fucking idiot. Sure, beer doesn't turn me into that much of a knob, but it certainly will turn the underdeveloped into complete animals.

These boys are very lucky because my friend and I would have totally mopped the concrete with them however we were being the bigger men and took a few hits to prevent an escalation.

All in all, I was the least in the wrong. I did save those blokes from certain "loyal friend destruction", and I was just trying to help the guy, and yet no one got hurt except for me... Nice ey.

Addictions have to be completely whipped out this year, since the universe can see that I want spiritual growth, therefore has very little tolorence for me behaving in a contrary nature, and these warnings appear to get steadily more obvious.

Just a little venting I suppose. Just for curiosities sake, are any of you guys around my age group and get involved in these type of stupidities? I'm 28 years old BTW.

How old did you think I was? I look a lot older, plenty of greys now, I look almost 40. Stress is the opposing force of beauty I reacon.
 

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I think my physical size acts as a deterrent, though I don't consider myself a "big" guy, I am over 200 pounds and still lean at over six feet tall. I don't see it, but I've noticed other "blokes" as you call them shy away from mixing it up with me.

I also don't have the attitude of a fighter. I never consider if I can "take" someone, and rarely size up a threat by their physical bulk. I look for their attitude, and if it seems hostile or reckless, then I steer myself away from the situation and don't give it a second thought, except to observe that I'm keeping my distance (sometimes miles away). I choose not to surround myself with people who have a habit of forcing their opinion (whether I agree with them or not) or a recent history of fighting. I will listen to someone's BS and if they don't want discourse, then I don't bother trying to "teach" anybody anything. Some people are willing to listen, but most get pissed off when you disagree with them in my experience.

Not saying that my opinion is the right one, but it does cut down on some of life's drama. Hope the wounds heal up soon. Always a shame when people are out having a good time and it results in someone getting hurt.