The saga continues.
A very excellent and fortuitous turn of events.
This part of the story demonstrates how powerful homeopathy can be for the transformation of consciousness
and for the release of old karmic issues. It is the best non-fiction I could entertain myself with.
I have consulted with clairvoyant friend of mine "Navi" about my fear at the threshold.
She has helped guide me a lot. I have reflected the parts about the Torah beliefs and she has been a great help.
Last week, some time, I sent her a Whatsapp, explaining I was feeling very strong "dissolution" in the proximity
of the abyss / black hole, what have you. Still. Again. The fear. The rage as well.
And frustration because:
A) I want to let go and set myself free. B) Part of me does not want to let go, at all.
A push-pull. She reflected this very awareness.
She had written me back last tuesday (Sept 12)
and in the afternoon, I laid down to have a nap.
As I was drifting off to sleep, about 5-6 times, each time, I'd feel the "door" (which is everywhere all around)
opening up to the infinite, but it's also dark, like an abyss.
As it was happening, I saw spirals of light moving all around. This is not the first time.
Perhaps the umpteenth time, but... it was very strong. very clear.
I've looked this symptom up many times.
But I looked it up as a "sees spirals" or "delusions; spirals" to see which remedies have and I have played around with some of those remedies, but none of them resolved the issue. (Terror at the Threshold)
I was also feeling an accompanying symptom which was very characteristic and strong.
It is the feeling of crawling on the backs of my hands.
I searched both of these symptoms again, but this time, i didn't put "sees" or "delusions" - i just put
"spirals" - and I found a remedy that I had discovered around 7 years ago, that i hadn't looked at in a while.
Dreams; spirals; moving: andri-q.
The full name of this remedy is Andricus quercuscalicis; English: Knopper oak galls.
You know, Oak galls?
Well, this remedy, has dreams of spirals... and they're moving. That is exactly what is happening.
I never thought to look up the dreams, because I am quasi awake, but it does work, since I am just drifting off to sleep when I see it.
I then looked up the crawling at the wrist, called formication:
Extremities; formication, crawling; wrists:
andri-q calc calc-acet caust.
And there is the remedy again! So two of these huge symptoms I was having is covered by this pretty niche small remedy - Oak galls.
(funny enough, the remedy calc is calcium carbonate, ha! which is prepared from an oyster shell. How ya like them apples? Anyway, that's a digression)
I looked further into the remedy and found this rubric:
Mind; delusions, imaginations; abyss; fear of falling down an:
alco andri-q carbn-s.
And there it is again.
Wow. Mind totally blown. It fits the freaking out about falling into an abyss right on the edge of sleep and wakefulness or deep meditation and when I get those "freak out" I'd see the spinning and moving spirals. Wow.
So grateful.
I happened to have it from 7-8 years ago and took it in a 1M, which is a decently potent dose.
That night, I had a powerful experience in my "part sleep / part waking state."
I told Navi, two days later, I wrote the following to her:
"I took one dose of the 1M of Oak Galls two days ago, and so far, no fear. The night after I took it, i felt the "abyss" and "fell into it in my center, like right in the pit in my chest" and
i saw an inky black liquidy form of energy there for a few moments, but that was it. right in the middle of my sleep. it woke me up so i could perceive it."
Navi was amazed at the whole Oak Galls remedy and could see the shift it was bringing.
I thought nothing special of this experience in the night. It seemed normal, or like a release that came from the Oak Gall remedy.
But then, my alchemy research continued.
On all these threads going on lately -
HERE and
HERE -
I was agonizing over the mystery of what Palmer refers to as the "magnet for the astral spirit" taking on the symbol of the cross.
Andro said:
Also, according to Zadkiel, the
"mine of 30 years standing" is not the location for digging up the matter, but for harvesting the Astral Spirit.
That blew my mind actually. I hadn't considered that.
I began considering that the dripping waters in mines of 30 years standing...
At first, i thought it was just stalactite calcitic waters... but
that didn't make total sense... as the astral spirit should be more acidic and the carbonic acid in the stalactite waters can verrrrrrryyyy slowly dissolve the limestone, but verryyyyy slowly, and doesn't fit the bit.
I thought perhaps something more of a sulfurous and acidic nature... you know, all that metallogenesis, growing of metals in the mines stuff. I began considering vitriol, copper and iron sulfate, and while I was researching
that, recall that I had also recently been researching Oak Galls from the remedy I had discovered. And here's where the homeopathic magic goes next level.
I came upon some interesting articles that crossed over the two topics - of iron sulfate and Oak galls.
It turns out, there is an ink that is called Iron Gall Ink. It is black.
This was used quite commonly during the times of te middle ages(try to find this amazing artile I had read)
Here’s the text I found:
https://quod.lib.umich.edu/e/eebo/A47656.0001.001/1:7.18?rgn=div2;view=fulltext
A course of chemistry containing an easie method of preparing those chymical medicins which are used in physick : with curious remarks and useful discourses upon each preparation, for the benefit of such who desire to be instructed in the knowledge of this art
Lémery, Nicolas, 1645-1715., Harris, Walter, 1647-1732.
CHAPTER. XVIII. Of Vitriol.
There are three sorts of
Green Vitriol, the
German, English, and the
Roman. That of
Germany draws near unto the
blue, and contains a little Copper, it is better than the rest for the preparation of
Aqua fortis. That of
England partakes of
Iron, and is proper to make the
Spirit of Vitriol. The
Roman is much like the
English Vitriol, excepting that it is not so easie to dissolve.
Red Vitriol was brought among us a few years ago out of
Germany, it is called
Natural Colcothar, and is esteemed to be a
Green Vitriol Calcined by some subterranean heat. It is the least common of them all, it stops Bloud, being applied to Hemorrhagies.
If you dissolve a little white, or green Vitriol (Triune One's note: iron sulfate) in water, and write with the dissolution, the writing will not be seen, but if you rub the paper with a little Cotton dipt in the decoction of Galls, it will appear legible; then if you wet a little more Cotton in Spirit of Vitriol, and pass it gently over the paper, the Ink will disappear again; and yet at last if you rub the place with a little more Cotton dipt in Oil of Tartar made per Deliquium, it will again appear legible, but of a Yellowish colour.
The reason that I can give for these effects is this, the
Spirit of Vitriol dissolves a certain
Coagulum which is made of
Vitriol and Galls, but the
Oil of Tartar breaking the force of this acid Spirit, the
Coagulum recovers it self, and appears again, but because it now contains
Oil of Tartar too, it acquires a new colour.
So what is shocking to me, is that, after I took the Oak Galls, it did wipe out the fear of the abyss, for sure, but I began to feel overly obsessed about finding out all the hidden secrets of alchemy. I have felt that way in the past, in fact, much of my life, as I am sure many of you will understand and have felt equally. However, it was heightened to a pitch, like a manic feeling of obsession. Not peaceful.
One of the brothers here, with whom I was communicating, had told me, at the same time I was considering the copper or iron vitriols for the work, that
he was sure the matter in the Quartet was marcasite… which is, of course, iron sulfide (Moshe's edit note, which was pointed out below by Andro.) (I will not mention the name of the brother, as I have not his permission to do so, but he is welcome to come forth if/when he reads this)
So putting this all together, after I took the Oak gall remedy, I began feeling
more obsessed, needing to find the answer to secrets hidden in the alchemical texts. To me, the iron gall ink perfectly exemplifies this. When I read that text "
Of Vitriol," shared in the above quote, it became a strong notion to me that the iron gall ink was so very likely used to send secret messages. It could be written in iron sulfate, then it would only appear when someone would rub Oak gallic acid, whereupon another party could then make it disappear by rubbing spirit of vitriol on it...and so on and so forth. Perfect method for the adept philosopher's to pass secret messages to each other.
This substance, iron gall ink, to me, in homeopathic speak, it's essence, represents
secrets in alchemy, kept secret among the elite, from the unwashed masses. And here I am, a pleb with great desire to know the secrets of this club I am not invited into, obsessing over the secrets kept in these texts… and then my friend tells me about marcasite while I am also intensely researching vitriol.
What this forum brother had also written about in the correspondence was the following:
My suspicion is that you're placing too much importance in the old texts.
Might it help to remind you that those texts were never written to teach plebs like us how to perform their art, but rather to communicate to each other that they know how to do it.
And this next, when I recalled the experience the night after taking the Oak Galls remedy... this is the icing on the cake:
- I took one dose of the 1M two days ago, and so far, no fear. the night after i took it, i felt the "abyss" and "fell into it in my center, like right in the pit in my chest" and
i saw an inky black liquidy form of energy there for a few moments, but that was it. right in the middle of my sleep. it woke me up so i could perceive it.
That is the Iron gall ink! That is more precisely the correct remedy for me. It might be considered a complement, because the Oak galls certainly are so precise.
but to be obsessing about alchemical secrets. to be placing too much importance on the texts, to be researching iron sulfate and Oak galls...
What a blessing!! I am so very grateful for this amazing creation and this experience of life.
what a wonder. Incredible!
Then another piece of the puzzle clicked into place.
This ink had become discontinued because it was discovered that it was etching the parchment it was written on.
Corroding and etching it.
And then it hit me.
This homeopathic remedy (prepared from Iron gall ink) would be perfect for those who have studied texts, like the Torah, the Bible, the Quran, Alchemy texts, and these texts have become "etched" into their mind, creating a deep imprint of the beliefs in the texts.
Remember when I wrote in an earlier post on this thread that I saw how all these beliefs in Torah had been etched into my mind?
Well... Thank you God for this substance in Nature that mirrors this predicament that I and others like myself can get ourselves into, where we have etched in our minds the writings of sacred texts and our minds become imprinted, etched with the limiting beliefs of those texts.
Where we place too much emphasis on the text and don't trust the inner instinct enough.
Where we obsess over finding secrets, and these secrets have a particular quality to being reserved for a special "elite" class of "illuminati" who could share secrets invisibly with each other, just to bring them to visibility, with chemistry, which back then, was probably quite avant garde and exciting. The whole mystique of alchemy itself is all shrouded in this sort of elite club feel, which is why I am so grateful for this brotherly love that is happening and quickening now on this forum. I can feel it strongly.
This remedy does not yet exist in our homeopathic repertory, but I have no doubt, it will be of service to me, and others, who have this similar, yet potentially quite rare, list of spiritual and intellectual issues. I will have it made up at a homeopathic pharmacy, so it can be of service to others who might stumble upon these words in this remote corner of the world.
